Monday, 27 June 2011

The 2.2 of Disappointment...

Q: Hello sir, I'd like to ask you five questions concerning your degree. Do you mind?
A: No, not at all.

Q: Okay, here goes. Why did you do your degree?
A: Well I originally did my degree because I didn't know it existed. I saw the course title 'Creative Writing' and thought, that could be good. Though of course I should have taken history like the Stanford Test suggested, but I didn't want a test telling me what to do with my life when I didn't know what to do with my life. And it was by sheer chance and my perversion that I chose to study Creative Writing at Trinity. It had the prettier girls.

Q: How did you feel when you received your 2.2?
A: Well I wasn't best pleased, to put it lightly, after all I was expecting everyone to receive 2.1's and do exceptional in the things that we hadn't received the marks in yet. So yes, I was very disappointment and annoyed at myself. I was actually annoyed with plenty of other people on my course as well. Those less deserving than I, I thought. Very pretentious of me. Though what else am I going to think when those in question don't buy the books, don't turn up to lectures, and don't do their work in time? And I work my hardest, the hardest I've ever worked for academia, and I come up under where I want to be. It makes you think that you shouldn't try so hard for something, if it doesn't come naturally then it won't come at all. Though saying all these negative things I am really proud of those people who did get higher than me, and I am proud of those people because I know they worked for it as hard as I did. I am proud.

Q: Where do you think you went wrong?
A: What sort of question is that? Though I suppose if I were to answer it, I would say that I did not interact in class enough, I did not talk to my lecturers after receiving marks back, to see where I was going wrong, and I did not read enough. So if that was the case then I'm sure I wasn't cut out of academia.

Q: What will you be doing now?
A: I don't actually know. I don't think I'll be doing any proper work until after I come back from my holiday in a couple of weeks. Though if I were to answer properly, at the moment I'm in the process of writing a screenplay with a few friends of mine, I am leading a team of writer so that we might develop and create a Zombie Apocalypse in Carmarthen, and I'm also waiting to hear back from the Cardiff International Poet of the Year Competition among other competitions I've entered. So all I've got to do is keep writing, and I'm sure something will come from it. Though, as for my personal progression, I will be learning Italian, learning how to drive, and getting much fitter and Vin Diesel like.

Q: Okay good, good, one final question. Would you do it all again? The same way? Everything?
A: Yes. Simply yes, there's no doubt about it. Though I'm definitely sure that there would be things I'd change. If not the marks, but definitely the occasions when I needed to be more of a man and the ones where I just needed to be a person. Perhaps if I'd done what I thought about doing during those occasions then perhaps I'd be more of an emotionally acceptable person. But that's just perhaps.

So yes, I got a 2.2. I am now a Bachelor of Arts with Honours. And I've finally gotten over myself and would like to congratulate everyone I know. And I would also like to announce that I am incredibly proud of HB Sauce for her 2.1. I can think of no one more deserving. Well done, even though I know you won't read this.

So without university I wouldn't have done this blog, and with it you've witnessed the emotional madness that is my mind. I wouldn't change who I am, who I've befriended, or who I love, even though I know some of them would.

But that's me, until next time bloggers...

P.S. Just a quick question to see who is still reading this 66 Posts on. If you could change one aspect of my life, what would it be? I know the question is about me, but meh, it's my blog.

Saturday, 18 June 2011

In Other Words...

Well today was interesting to say the least.

Not only did my mother come over to have a day out around Carmarthen, I took her for lunch we looked at suits for me, and my did I look handsome!

She also brought with her the perfect ingredients of S'mores - an American treat eaten by Americans, sent by my friend Pegan from America.

But no, those things, although very interesting and very tasty weren't the thing that was most interesting on today of all days.

For one my mother started talking to me about women, as she does on occasion when she wants reassuring that I'm not gay. And then, even she got on to the topic of HB Sauce - not the Sauce in this context of course, but the Sauce herself. I thought this odd but went along with it. No, what was strange and most interesting was mum had been speaking to HB's Aunt who is a colleague of mum's (strange how the world comes together isn't it?) and HB's Aunt told mum that HB - and I quote - 'she bloody loves you you've just got to be more of a man.'

I've been terribly giddy and happy and joyous when those words came out of - surprisingly - my mother's mouth. HB's Aunt also continued on to say: 'I want a special invite to the wedding.' Which is something I know HB's Grandmother has been talking about since day one. Its just really nice to know that despite all my sorrows and sadness that everything is looking to be okay and will turn out just fine.

Its been three years after all, what could go wrong?

But that's me, until next time bloggers...

P.S. Touch Wood!

Wednesday, 15 June 2011

Three Rings of the Elven Kings...

Yes that's right, I'm watching the Lord of the Rings...

Man I'll tell you something for nothing - if I were to watch any set of films from now until death I would watch these. And not only that I would get loads done.

Nothing major mind, perhaps build a few thousand flat packs, write thousands more novels, with accompanying backstory, maps, and other details, and I'd make some great table top gaming models, paint them brilliantly, and have some fantastic scenery to go along with them. I'd also have this constant urge to read the Lord of the Rings and other Epic Fantasies. Man oh man, these films are great, I've got the urge to do everything - literally loads.

But there's nothing to do, so I'm just sitting back and watching these writing this. Perhaps writing a bit more than this. I've written my own Dwarven Script now - so I don't have to steal Tolkien's ever again (Hi Professor), and I'm working on the Elven Script. I've been thinking about commissioning someone arty to re-draw my map, so I can get it printed A3 size - I've been thinking how I'm going to re-arrange my room when I get back, and I've been thinking what to do with my life.

Wow these films are inspiring.

I have also just received my American Goodies from my American friend. Today is a good day, today is Lord of the Rings day.

But that's me, until next time bloggers...

Tuesday, 14 June 2011

An Open Letter to the Flatmates...

"Dear All...

I know you've left me, and I know why, its because you hate me isn't it? I know I'm really hard to get along with and my incessant need for company really does drain you all. But just know that I don't blame you for leaving me. It had to happen sometime."

Well that was creepy and sad and everything all rolled into one there. And don't worry I don't feel that way at all. Here's what a real letter to you all would sound like:

"Dear All...

We've had our ups and our downs. Hell, its been three years for most of us and that's a long time to live in such close proximity to anyone. We've enjoyed our time from jiggly jiggly dancing (Hi Wodge), to Eskimo Kisses (Hi Cherrybelly), to rampant, and sometimes not dry, gay, manloving, humping in the corridor (Hi Tag and Pill). So basically all I would want to say at this juncture is Good Luck, and Carry On - Lie Back and think of England - Keep up Appearances.

Toodle-pip, tallyhoe, and what what
Your lovable friend,
Big Tom"

There we are, that's not as creepy, sad or pathetic by our standards is it?

But that's me, until next time bloggers...

Thursday, 2 June 2011

Nick-nack Paddywack...

Hello everyone...

It's been a short while hasn't it? Well I'm a part of the Ffrinj next week and I haven't written anything. Worrying indeed.

Not even that but I've got to write the Carmarthen Zombies with my friends, I have a couple of writing competitions to enter, I still don't know whether I'm Cardiff's International Poet of the Year, I've got my own writing to focus on, I want to learn a bit of Italian before I leave, and I've got to start work on looking like Vin Diesel.

Man I'm busy, or at least I should be. But instead I'm more interested in helping my friends make and play this Dragon Age D&D game.

Meh, you never know. I might get around to doing some of this work. Who knows.

Oh, and I've been watching lots of Bones recently, hence the title.

But that's me, until next time bloggers...