Tuesday, 24 May 2011

The Pangs of Life...

As you know the University Experience is over and as such everyone is moving out.

This an unfortunately sad occasion therefore and everyone is kind of on edge and doesn't know how to move on. Others are just leaving, ripping off the plaster as it were.

I, however, am lingering on to the very last.

I remember why I liked my degree and why I worked at it and got distracted in all the geeky things I do - I liked it and those geeky things because it all made me forget about how sorry my life actually is.

Damn it, I hate feeling sorry for myself especially when I know I shouldn't be. There are people who are far worse off than I but this still happens. When I don't have anything to do I always realise how alone in the world I actually am. And not only that but the person I actually do fancy/admire/love doesn't seem too bothered in me. That makes me feel great.

Pill thinks I should tell her the reasons behind me not saying 'Yes' to her last summer, but I don't want the relationship, if one emerges, to begin on a bed of excuses. Man oh man I'm love-sick and I just don't want to continue saying any of this but I've got to vent somehow!

I just don't want to hurt anymore.

I just hope with all this pain and anguish that I can write some bloody good poetry.

But that's me, until next time bloggers...

Monday, 23 May 2011

And So It Ends...

Well that was that. University in all its wondrous and life making brilliance...

I promise I won't summaries anything. But these past 2 weeks I've never been so exhausted, and all I was doing was writing and presenting presentations.

The iEvolve Conference went extremely well thank you very much. I got many a laugh and an email afterwards from one of my lecturers asking for an image I used.

FYI it was this one:

I thought that'd make you chuckle. All around its been a good time. We just don't know what to do with ourselves now. There's no structure to our lives, the widening gyre, the falcon cannot hear the falconer. Man I love that poem. Things fall apart.

So everything is all well in the world, apart from now its down to Me and a few others to create the backstory to the Carmarthen Zombie Apocalypse (CZA) which is very cool.

I might find out whether I'm Cardiff's International Poet of the Year, I'll be reading something in the Carmarthen Ffrinj this year at the Dylan Thomas Boathouse, and I've got to try and finish my major literary masterpiece. Not much to do with a lot of time on your hands now is there?

Oh and I've got to fit in countless hours of Xbox and Tv.

I also think things with HB Sauce are looking up. I might ask her if she wants to catch a film, see what she says. Wish me luck. Wait, this isn't the end, it's only just the beginning (Ooooh I said it! Hi Tag!)

But that's me, until next time bloggers...

Sunday, 8 May 2011

30,307 Words Later...

Well I didn't expect that to be that long, but I hope my Creative Project is finally at an end.

This legendary piece of work was constructed over many hours and days and weeks but its finally done, and I have forged the first step on the staircase to the end of my Degree.

Wow, its really scary if I put it like that.

Oh well, not long to go now. Just 2 weeks and my lifetime of education will come to a close. Really kinda sad thinking about it. Have all my educational choices been good? Will I do well? What does the Future hold? I'd best not answer those questions just yet, and I'm starting to sound like the Paper I'm going to deliver on Wednesday.


Why does everything happen at once?

Its a really quite strange thing to think that I'll be moving home soon, and then what...

The Future is a big place...

But that's me, until next time bloggers...

P.S. Check out my new Vlog I've been told to make it a weekly thing so it should be interesting if I keep doing stuff.